Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in senioritis101's LiveJournal:

Saturday, July 30th, 2005
4:48 pm	One hell of a long night I should have known yesterday was going to be a bad day. I got up ten minutes before I had to leave for town. While I'm there picking up my prescription, I got extremely smart and locked my keys in my car. So I had to spend $30 on a locksmith to get them out. I finally got home two hours later and went in to see my friends. Cole got back, so about ten of us went out there to see him and party for a while. We went to town for a few minutes, and the crackhead that was driving my car (without a DL) forgot to turn the headlights on, so we ended up getting pulled over. Luckily, he let us go with a warning and said to go home. We got back out to Cole's and had to take my friend Mike home, and on the way there I got a call on my cell from my cousin Larry. All he said was "Tell Cole his trucks wrecked." Turns out our 15 year old friend Nathan (Pudge) got drunk, took Coles truck, and ran it off the road, through an irrigation ditch, through an irrigation pipe, and into the middle of a cornfield. The truck was pretty much ok, just a few dents and a bent fender, but the broken pipe completely flooded the field and cost around $1600 in damage to the crop. So Cole's dad showed up a while later and they got into a screaming match in the front yard over it. In the mean time, I was sitting in the bathroom with Pudge, trying to clean up the numerous cuts all over him, and Keya, who has acid reflux disease, was laying on the floor saying she thought she was dying. The fight between Cole and his dad lasted another thirty minutes, but Cole covered for Pudge, saying someone had stole the truck and wrecked it.So now Coles in DEEP shit with his parents, Pudge and anyone else involved will get charged with a felony if they're caught, my boyfriends pissed because he thinks there's something going on between me and cole, and I have scratches all over my legs from walking around with no shoes on looking for the truck. On top of it all, larry and his girlfriend are fighting because he's a recovering alcoholic and everyone says he drank last night, which I know he didn't. I really can't wait to graduate. There's too much drama here. Every time Cole and I or Larry and I get around each other something like this happens. EVERY DAMN TIME. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
9:57 pm	All of the people in my life I figured that it would be a good idea to tell about the people I'll be writing about most here, just so everyone who reads it knows who I'm talking about and what I'm talking about. So here goes: Miranda: Miranda and her fiance Justin are two of my best friends, they just had a baby boy on the 5th of July Kyle and Nicki: Kyle and Nicki are my brother and sister, he's 14, she's going to be 12 in September Matt: Matt is my boyfriend. He is the male version of who I used to be. He is my best friend and has always been there for me, but he smokes pot and drinks way too much, and dabbles in other drugs every once in a while. Hopefully I'll be able to get him off of all of that by the time I graduate Slaw: Slaw is Matt's best friend. He's an awesome rapper, and has his own CD, which is actually really good for a 19 year old recording off of his home computer. Cole:My then-boyfriend for the following list about me. He is still the love of my life, and always will be. There's always people in your life you would take a bullet for, and he's one of them. And a little bit about me: I am definitely not the perfect child. Far from it, actually. I've done most of the stupid stuff you can do as a teenager. Most of it without my parents or friends ever knowing. Here's the list: 1) Drugs: Meth, pot, shrooms, acid, and if you include it, alcohol. I did the first four up until about a year ago, when my then-boyfriend (who was an addict of all of them) helped me quit. 2)Running Away: Almost, I actually had the Greyhound to Tampa, but at the last moment I realized how stupid I was being and how good I really had it. And again, the then-boyfriend helped me get over it. 3) Smoking: I still do, but after next week I'm quitting, both for my own good, and for all of the people that care about me 4) Eating Disorder: I used to be ED-NOS (eating disorder-not otherwise specified). I'm 6'0", and after a while, all of the comments about being so thin make you think that you have to stay that way or the people in your life won't care as much about you. I'm over it, but it's still something I struggle with everyday,the decision to eat and to live a healthy life, even though I may not be the perfect image of what some people think I should look like. I know that there is more to this list, but I can't think of anything else at this point in time. Currently, I am very in touch with God, slightly out of touch with reality, but fully in touch with life. I'll be a senior in high school next month, and I am going to do everything I can to make this the best year ever. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Slaw (Comment on this)
12:14 am	All About Me I figure I should let everyone who might read my journal know a little about me, even though most of it isn't relevant anyways.....so here you go ( everything you don't need to know ) Current Mood: awake Current Music: 36 Mafia (Comment on this)
Monday, July 18th, 2005
8:50 pm	Hhhmmmmmm...... It's been a good day. I had my laparoscopy this morning at seven, and they removed some endometriosis and a benign tumor from my right ovary. Other than my shoulders, stomach and ribs hurting, I'm feeling really well. I've decided that it's time to leave my old life behind, to start working towards who I really want to be. The past year has been a hard one. An eating disorder, cutting, stealing, drinking, doing drugs, and numerous boyfriends who were controlling, possessive, and verbally abusive have consumed my happiness since last summer. But not any longer. I've found a wonderful boyfriend, he truely cares about me and is always there when I need him. I'm recovering from my eating disorder, it's a long hard road, but I feel I'm doing very well. I've completely stopped cutting, stealing, and doing drugs. I still drink occasionally, but no longer to drown out what I'm feeling, and only in complete responsibility. It's time to find people I get along with well, ones who will be there to support me through the hard times and to congratulate me in the good ones. And I know I can do it. There isn't a doubt in my mind that I can once again become the happy, free-spirited, and self destruction free girl that I was before I got to know all of these people. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)